:D SMILES!

SO SO MUCH TO BLOG! a busy busy week!
I'm feeling so so much better! Thats the result of having friends that i have.
Troubles gone everytime around them. (:
It was prelims week. Last day, F&N and HISTORY! it almost killed me.
Not only the part of memorizing the notes but also the writting of the endless rims of paper!
My hands almost shattered and back almost broke! The aches are back agn.

After my prelims, went to orchard with kit, jiayi and bec. then after to bec's house for making of candies! :D
Yes, WE ATE BEN& JERRY FOR LUNCH! :) 12 scoops of refreshing Icecream!
Then the candies at bec's house. FUNNNNNN~ we played for hours left for home at 11:20pm.
Bec's mom was so nice! she cooked a big feast for us! can imagine how much she has spent.
Feel bad! THANK YOU ALL!
Needta go out soon. well post pictures tonight! :)
I'M SO HAPPY!

Yes, how contridicting can you be? first, 'leave me alone' and then you feel ignored. How ironic is this?

Tranquility

Chat with D just now. Feel so much more relaxed and cooled down now!
THANK YOU! :D
Lei Garden for dinner! WOOOOOO it was DIVINE! :) I love Chimes, I Love Lei Garden!

I'm drowning in F&N and history notes now. Kind of late to study. But better than nothing right.
GOGOGO! HOLIDAYS HERE I COME!

I'm $90 away! You know what I mean.

A Rainy Day

SCARY SCARY SCARY
Foi descartado outra vez ):
I thought i miss THAT feeling but now i know it MACHUCA more!
Forget it. But i'm damn CIOSO! asshole!

The past papers has all been crap. I have never done this badly for my Social Studies ever! 3 of the SEQ were on Singapore and lucky enough, i didn't touch on that section. What can i say i dont like Singapores' history. Singapore's Politics bore me to death! Nothing good can be expected from Mdm Anantha's papers. Because of one 'let the' she marked me down from scoring full marks for that question. What logic is that? Thats right she has a 'no one can ever score full marks for history' policy. Cant blame me for debating with such a teacher. If they lose they would categorize you into the rebellious student section. I'm kind of stationed there for sometime alrdy.
I'm stubborn and i hold grudges!

Oh yes HAPPY BELATED REBECCA, 27th aug 2007 was this lucky girl's birthday! Went to new york, SHE TREATED US TO DRINKS! which was 6-7 dollars on average! And her mom paid for out G.S.T which was alot! i think 20 dollars or so for 5 & jadon. haha I HAVE PICTURES! But my phone is currently not in reach. Shall post them another day. Went for Rush Hour 3 after with bec and kit. Laughed till my eye balls almost dropped out! recommended to watch! :D say aizat, Ara and sharon.

Went to Subway today with weesan, kit and jiayi. Nothing else? Never rly gossip, nothing much to say. 'THE FORCE was in our way! If you get what i mean. Nothing special.

POOR JIAYI! He's not worth it! Lousy Man!

Picture post

Pictures of the bbq, national day and kuan's funky hairstyle! :D

MOVIES! (:

Please be jealous of me! I WATCHED HOSTEL ||, kind of actually. Thank you yenling!
Its rly gross! The director could not leave their clothes on. And has a sick mind of hanging them upside down and filming their nude bodies, EVERY PART.
i only caught the front, middle and ending part. my 1st time going for a R21 show. My heart raced like mad everytime a person enters the theatre. Its just so so cool having a friend working there. I want to work there! The first few times someone came to check, yenling was no where to be found so we had to return to watch 'dead silence' or something. The theatre for hostel is so so empty wanted to hide but got caught!
That stupid dead silence is horrible so typical. but after a while yenling smuggled us back in. Rly have to thank her so much! (:

Movie maraton yesterday watched Ratatouille and the almighty show.

Ratatouille was great! just that i would not eat food that is prepared from a rat.

The Evan almighty show is kind of expected? Its somehow the same as bruce almighty. DO NOT WASTE YOUR MONEY ON EVAN ALMIGHTY! not worth it.
Went off to the 'bbq' afterward.Wl had to catch his sunderland versus Liverpool. zz & so after i got knocked out by the alcohol. First time ever! Reached home at god knows what time. i have pictures but i'm rly lazy and lacking of sleep.
EVERYTHING IS JUST SO PERFECT(: <3 saturdays! Its the only day i can leave all my tears behind.

G just puts a smile on my face. Everything just falls into place around him :D
And something major happened! SORRY BUT I'M JUST SO SO HAPPY THAT IT DID :D

i was TAGGED by Kityee.
Rules of the game: each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. people who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. at the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. no tagbacks! :D

AM I THAT WEIRD? HAHA.

1. I HATE SUNDAYS !
2. I get irritated easily brainless people speak.
3. I hate noise!
4. I suck at chinese! Don't inderstand why, I COMMUNICATE IN CHINESE AT HOME with my mom!
5. I love eating citrus fruits!
6. Love almonds and strawberry pokey
7. Love watching english series, movie more than chinese.
8. I love baking! :D
9. Brand caucious
10. I think I love weilong.

Im not weird but normal
everyone does that too right? :D

the 'LUCKY' six :
1) Jiawen
2) jaslyn
3) Wanning
4) jiayi
5) jolyn
6) AH LAM!

SMELLY SHIT FACES

I dislike mrs ang like mad. my aunt just told me that she speaks ill of me in school. DAMN HER! i've never talked back to her like ever. Since when did i? i'm the quietest during Maths lessons. school stinks!
FINE, i shall glue my lips together in class, thats if i'm attending.
I'm rebellious you're shit so i'm fine with that. Teachers can never stand the thought of them losing a debate to students. FOR GOD SAKE! TEACHERS IN AMKSS ARE FUC*** UP!

off to G's

Spending, Spent

Papers are all so far horrible x1000

All set for tomorrow! (: spent like $178.62 in market place for the bbq goods.
wanted to get those home delivery things but, kind of dumb. So sarah got her bf to pick up the stuff.
They were late! Have to wait for those guys to book out. All kinds of excuses came along. The way they 2 spoke was rly very funny and couple-y :)
Had to find some place to put the stuff down before the guys all the stuff was so so heavy!
So, in the mean time we went to e2max. LOGGED INTO MAPLE! miss that silly game! sarah and yujia were busy with guys online.
sarah has a hot bf! haha ok i practically say that about every guy nowadays. Except for some that is.
When i got into the car, not sure what car it is think its a highlander, though it is a car but it totally had that plane smell. Felt car sick! headaches and everything fell into place. I swear i almost vomited.
Reached home at ard 8. Thank god! hah
They are such nice people! feel kind of odd though.

POST SHORTENED!

YAY G is out out out out out (: MISS G! lots to update him on!

From jolyns'

Answer the following questions:
- The person who tagged you is:
JOLYN
/ Your relationship with her is:
A friend, classmate for 3 years!
/ Your 5 impressions of her:
LOVELY, always Paranoid ' she claims, real hot, Has rly nice long hair 'haha, Wonder woman like :D
/ The most memorable thing she had done for you:
I was sad the other day and she cheered me up.
/ The most memorable words she had said to you:
Those words of encouragement! (:
/ If he/ she becomes your lover, you will:
She is too good to be true, the 'If' would never come! HAHA
/ If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
She is far from having any flaws! SO NOTHING! PERHAPS SMILE MORE? :)
/ If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
I don't wish for this to happen, so it has never crossed my mind.
/ If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
She being too perfect! hah
/ The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Clear all her worries so as allow her to own her Os!
/ Your overall impression of him/ her is:
CLASSY!
/ How do you think people around you will feel about you?
I dont know, that i would have to ask them to know right. But i know irritating would not be left out!
/ The characteristic (s) you love of yourself is /are:
I wish someone would tell me.
/ On the contrary. the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
Too much to be stated. mainly cant fix my mind on doing a right thing.
/ The most ideal person you want to be is:
I dont want to be anyone else actually.
/ For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Dont waste your time, i'm not worth.
/ Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1) WL
2) JOLYN haha
3) JIAWEN
4) KITYEE
5) WEESAN
6) JASLYN
7) AH LAM
8) SHARON WOOOOOOO :)
9) SARAH
10) CLARENCE. L

-Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
More like relationshipS? lol :)
-Is No. 9 a female or male?
Its kind of obvious.
If No. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
NOWAY because i'll probably kill 7 HAHA i dont like to share!
-How about No. 8 and 5?
Its a long way there, you have to bend them. if you get what i mean
-What is No.2 studying about?
Same boring subject combination as me
-When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3?
In school.
-What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
AHHH! idk but i guess she prefers chinese bands more?
-Does No. 1 has any siblings?
Yes, a very hot sister!
-Will you woo No. 3?
NOT EVEN IF YOU THROW AT ME! WAHAHAHAH i date her all the time. Rejections a common sight ):
-How about No. 7?
Why not? at least she crack jokes all the time!
-Is No. 4 single?
HOHOHO. too many to name of there is D, C , CK ahh many many more!
-What's the surname of No. 5?
Teng [remains the same from jolin's]
-What's the name of No. 10?
CLARENCE!
-What's the hobby of No. 4?
ogling at guys with hot bod! haha
-Do No.5 and 9 get along well?
9 is a rly very easy going (: not sure about 5 though. haha
-Where is No. 2 studying at?
AMKSS , thats jolyn.
-Talk something casually about No. 1?
irritating, in a good way :) , heart breaker and loves to pick on my mistakes. So much more!
-Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
i'm sorry i'm straight.
-Where does No. 9 live at?
Want to stalk her? one of the roads near long house. dont know the name.
-What colour does No. 4 likes?
Her phone is pink. i guess pink. Think she is a multi colour lover!
-Are No. 5 and 1 best friends?
If they are i'll drown in jealousy
-Does No. 7 likes No. 2?
I saw them kisssing in the ladies in school! so what you think?
-How do you get to know No. 2?
In school! :)
-Does No. 1 have any pets?
Have you ever heard of a pig with pets?
-Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
She has never dance for me, i would not know. :)

My Heart Beats For You

I'm offically cheered up! Temporarily (:
It was all I need, why didn't i think of that sooner! AHHHHHHHHH

What i've learnt today:
1. A relationship can only last when there is true love.
Love does not develop just like that, It takes time, the greatest degree of understaning and forgiving.
True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see that imperfect person perfectly.
And when you could exchange everything you have just for his/her happiness, that is Love.
Ture love is unconditional.
soooo, i've just realized. What i've had in the past was not 'love' but just lust and desire.
Thats why it has never lasted.
But seriously, these few days thoughts of leaving this misery has crossed my mind for umpteen times.
I'll always think of a reason, the reason for me to stay.
I'll think of everything else and when it comes to you it stops, i stop thinking.
This is It, You're It. You're the reason i'm still here.
Tell me this isn't true, this isn't happening.
Nothing you do can change my mind.
[This is not a confession!] 'You sld know
Its 2am now, school & prelims tomorrow. I can't sleep!
3hours and i alrdy miss how you stumble when you give those speeches, the evil laughter, cruel jokes. :) HAHA
When you see this, which i hope it isn't anytime soon. Just don't pull my hair, I promise the insomnia is only for today.

2. And yes of course, i hope those maths formulas that i spent time drilling in my head are in and stable in place, in The Brain.

I HAD BIRD NEST SOUP TODAY! FINALLLLYYYYYYYY :)

Today is a happy day!

My definition of a happy day is a day where i need not get up in the morning to go for lessons, need not say exam and of course his Presence!
2:30am now, I NEED SLEEPING PILLS! Tomorrow would be hell.

): ):

Just give me one reason why do i still have to go to school. Just one because i can think of none. Go for the testimonal? mrs ang would not need to write one if i'm forced to go to school because i would be lying motionless in my grave. The noise, the people and freaking teachers that has to win the debate every single time are all driving me up and soon over. I CANNOT TAKE IT!

PITY IS THE LAST THING I NEED. If i can stop talking to people at home, i can do it too in school.

And K whoever you are just jump in joy whatever. my life is screwed.

):

Inn one day i've made tarts, tiramisu, bread, cookies and cupcakes and i'm still not feeling better ): I'm down to the lowest ):

GAVE UP ):

SCREW F&N, MY SISTER AND STUBBORN ASS MRS YEO KWE YONG. JUST DROP DEAD AND DIE! FACE ROT. BODIES CHOPPED! TROWN INTO THE DUMP. THEY'RE ALL ASS HOLES! F********************************** ): cannot explain how sad and angry i am now. WL IS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND TO VENT MY ANGER ON ): I WANT A PUNCHING BAG! stick those assholes' faces onto the bag and i assure you that my fist would be there 24/7. I'm sick of it, everything. my life is screwed up. Pitying me now is not gonna help me in anyway so if you're here for that, SCREW OFF AND DIE! I dont need that! I think i am giving up on talking to people. I feel that i dont like to explain myself anymore. Like if you want to say that i am that way, then it is. I have no energy arguing with anyone anymore.
Mrs Yeo is damn fucking bias! i lost my thumbdrive twice. lost all my information 4 times now? SHE DOES NOT EVEN CARE! This time after losing everything i totally give up. I've cried so much that i hope i'll die of dehydration.
All i want now is ginger! I Don't need and don't want anything else.

FOR THE LAST TIME STOP COMPARING MY MATTERS WITH YOUR INSIGNIFICANT MATTERS! DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING ANGRY I GET WHEN YOU DO THAT. Its like, I go for an operation, and you scream in pain after getting a blueblack. I dont know what do you have that is wrong to compare. DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I FREAKING MEAN? I GIVE UP TELLING ANYONE ANYTHING ANYMORE.

Actually i would very much want to be locked up in mental hos away from everything.

Leave Me Alone

Yuck!

Finally finished my Social Studies. I think. Have to see how I fair that is then i'll find out how fruitful my revision was.
Next stop maths. SICKENING ):
So what if you've been through your As. I HATE PEOPLE FROM JCS THEY'RE ALL IDIOTS LOOKING DOWN ON EVERYONE ELSE!
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! I don't wish to speack to you! IDIOT! ): Now i rly feel so alone with no one to turn to. Everyone seem to be caught up in their own little world of misery. Just how much more can I detest this life?

только любовь - wl

For the past week i've been acheing all over. z went to see the doctor twice.
First time the doctor said that it was because of Rheumatism (feng shi)? Seriously i'm like HUH? i thought only old people would suffer from that. Apperently I'm wrong. doctor says that i should not bathe at night and going into a aircon room with wet hair and everything. "GUILTY ): now on rainy days the pain starts to act up. Its like after running 8.6km and your body starts acheing And yeah not forgetting it travels from place to place. My case, it started from my arm then my back shoulder then leg. Back is still acheing now. damn jiawen and gang has been poking fun at me all week! ASS! haha :)
Second time, the doctor concluded that it was partly because of stress.Yeah whatever. Like who isn't stress now?
Work and revision of work showering. How disgusting can O lvls get?

Went to Funun with wl sometime this week. wanted to get my mango top but no stock at that brunch. wl got a lifebook! I WANT A FUJISU TOOOOO!
он приехал в мой дом и спал на моей кровати. почему он выглядит настолько очаровательным? Я думаю, что я похожу серьезно влюбленный с ним! КАК НЕ ЛЮБИТЬ. беспомощно влюбление в него! Come spero che questo potrebbe durare per sempre. non amo dividere a tutto. Di mai di volere dividerla con qualcuno altro :D

the rest of the week was like F&N F&N F&N F&N F&N F&N and more of F&N

F&N coursework, TERMINATED! :)

MY 50th POST IN THIS BLOG (: haha

i'm so happy ok. I'VE FINALLY COMPLETED MY 40 PAGE F&N COUSREWORK PART A & 10 PAGE PART B! weeeee

I have to thank quite a few people for this.

KITYEE- For helping me in printing of my part B! And in giving me a rough idea on how to do the mindmap for part A . YOU ROCK!

WEILONG- For helping me in some of the typing and editing! AIIIIIIIISIIIINIIIIILE :D And yes for the countless naggings and motivation. And accompanying me through late nights with your lousy jokes and those chilling ghost stories. :):):)

WEIPENG- Though it was in the past, thank you for offering in helping me to do my cw. And also accompanying me though late nights.

HENRY- [In the past] always trying to pull me out of maple. many fail attempts though. i mean most of them were failed attempts. hah still thank you.
[i'll never forget you all !!!] :D

Feel like its some award ceremonial speech. lol

problems that i faced in this coursework that i do not mention in my evaluation.
1. my IGNORANT MAID that is so freaking retarded that decided to let my thumbdrive go for a swim.
2. FREAKING FAMILY for pouring unwanted stress onto my everyday life. demoralizing shit faces.

Now i have a new problem, my sis FINALLY SAW HER THUMBDRIVE.
Let me explain, for 2 weeks i've seen this this thumbdrive at home. lying there, untouched. that shit face is staying at her luxury hostel in her uni for weeks now and has brought everything of hers there. For two weekends that she came back she did not take the thumbdrive to her hostel. So i thought it was nobody's. I did not want to save it to my E mail as that has brought me LOADS OF MISERY [dont wish to explain]. today She just found out that it was in my bag. So like either her eyes are too fucking small to see her thumbdrive or her eyes are too small to see them. Oh right, They are too freaking small. P.S. if you dont look closely you would think that "she's" an alien as you can't see her minuscule eyes on that *** face of hers.

But thank you JIAWEN for helping in the scanning! Not forgetting Jolyn for the message. thank you guys! :) feel so much better!

sarah, i rly dont know what else to say but just hope for the best ? you have to cheer up!

Replying tags

Have so much to update on but i'm so late for my over due coursework so i delicate this post just to reply to the tags :)


JAS, hah that day was rly fun! yeah JEN AND PAD! :D haha love no naked lights kuan and ara rocked! we should have screamed more!

Angeline, oh the last time i tried to enter i was lead to another web. :) yeah its fine now. Sure, hey all the best!

Jo, I love the song super alot alot alot alot ! I love the lyrics! has alot of meaning! anyways thanks you :)

Kit, HELLO KITYEE! :]

Eleanor, Yes lol, thanks sweet! i was clueless and so blurr la. but we did not go to the hall, it was posted on a piece of paper on the board of doom. haha!

Fu, Yeah you've rly changed for the better. hope you move jas one day with your strong determination! :) GOGOGO!

Junior, lol what do you want to wait for? haha


No matter how busy i am, i would dig out time to say this, I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE LWLLWLLWLLWLLWLLWLLWLLWL!
No matter what i'll love you still the same ! 'SMILES!
Too much a good thing is wonderful.

Chinese OsSS'

Well i guess all the people who got their O lvl chinese reasults are flooding their enties for today with their outcomes.
I PASSED MY CHINESE! :D
though i got scolding from like 1...2.....3..6 people for getting such results. z
Elin attained a C6 :) MERIT for oral! happy like mad ok! not the C6 part of course. Still i did not fail !
I have to seriously work doubley hard! TRIPPLE! A target agreement between WNE B3 for chinese. He promises to be at my command if i grab hold of the B3! HOHOHO wl if i rly get that you're sooo 'sheesh :D f3

ANSS is horrible horrible horrible. argh seriously grow up i wouldn't break up with my BF just for you.

ANy guy reading this, please strike off the 'i would wait for you forever, no matter what' from your dictionaries! It would just turn out to be a lie. Because this has never happened. The 'waiting forever' is short lived. SO SAVE IT!

I think i'm like seriously in love with baking. haha i stood up for hours, whipped up a little something. Pictures tmr, I'm ready to drop. Its one and i have school tmr.

I LOVE GINGERMAN :)

You Are The Music In Me

High school Musical 2, i think this song is rly nice :) 'You Are The Music In Me.



AT home the whole day! And i think wl is still sleeping now. Don't dare to wake him later he scream at me! hah BORING BORING BORING! Rotting alrdy. School tmr, WORSE ):
F&N Coursework is killing me slowly!

Love is fire. But whether it's gonna warm your heart or burn your house down you can never tell 'JJ

The Sleepless Night

I can't sleep! This is due to many many reasons!
Waiting for a super important call! 'wierd at this hour huh
secondly, i'm dying of laughter! Oh please nothing in this world can beat this ok.
If i tell this to jiawen she'll start giving me that spastic look! And i think if kityee finds out the next time she sees him she'll start pointing. And if i tell it to wl he'll be like 'idk what are you talking about'! I rly need sleep but cant sleep. PHONE PLEASE JUST RING and let me S.I.P!

Since i am this bored i shall upload photos.

The simulator ride at science center. i'm the one at the top left corner. The ride wasn't scary we just wanted to sceam thats all :D




























Those are so not my toes! HAHAHAHA Word of advise, never agree to let your girlfriend do pedicure on you :D never knew i has a bottle of hot pink nail polish! hah. My first ever time painting nails for a guy. anyways it was removed right after the photo. Wanted to add the white roses but he didn't let me. ): wl came over agn, the hunting was cancelled. Guess everyone fell asleep hah who knows why. z So we talked, laughed and whatever till i heard an alarm ringing. We quickly dashed for hideout. I actually thought it was my moms'. He left aft 1 hour and 20 minutes + :)
ARGH My sister and my brother stayed up till like dont know what time & why does my maid wake up at like 5am in the morning? I must have looked damn wierd painting 'my nails' in the middle of the night, hope she didn't see anyone. aw, 8 more days and my photoshop expires ):

Were like laughing like lunatics! :)
Being with him SCREAMS happiness, LOVE WL!

5:23am and counting. Maybe its the reception! 'deception

THEEEEE

LIM WEILONG STOP COMMENTING ON MY BLOG WITH YOUR NONSENSE! Go away! 'KICK YOU :D

Over the week

Somethings that i did this week that i forgot to post
Met wl at cq and walked to orchard just for a movie [disturbia] hah walked and talked and laughed and haha whatever. I think we took like 2 hours. :D you're just so nice LOVES! Disturbia is a very very very very nice movie! trilling!
Yes went to the science center, sat on the simulator and bing was the only guy. Screamed for the joy of screaming, kinda fun. Backbone hurt afterwards :)
On the national day celerbrations, went for pizza with WANNING, jiayi, bec, kit, jiawen. I hate pizza huts as seriously i do not know why they have to charge us with the 7% GST. And hell with the waitresses who does not know how to take orders.

Talked on the phone with wl for 6 hours and 31 minutes! Record breaking! :):):) Seriously talked about everything under the sun. slept only at 7 in the morning. Got woken up by mom at like 12.30pm z. Know a little bit more about army stuff! Too bad wl is the only son in the family. So hey people if you want your son to be a commando, he has to have a brother(s). I AM MISSING MAPLE LIKE ): i miss possessive, i miss ArchAngels! i can never go back, wl knows so but keeps reminding me of everything! I miss everything in there except for the boyfriend conflicts.

Howcanieverloveyouenough:)

He was here :)

Happiest thing happened today :)
was suppose to be out with love today but i was too lazy.
SOOOOOOOOO, love came by [just to see my room] z !!!!! was kind of shocked as there was no notification and my room was in a mess, i was in a mess! stupid maid was going in and out of the room. i swear my heart was racing. no guy has ever went to the 2nd floor only you! Anyways regarding that question of yours hmm, YOU FLIRT! NO WAY! :P I LOVE LOVE :D SMILES A MILLION TIMES. And wl, the books you lent to me are like ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ you sld have tore off the cover page at least. still, thank you love!

Mixed feelings

Happy Birthday Singapore, you're so old!

I want to be 18! i want to drive, i want to get out of school & i want to do what he does!
Its so unfair. somethimes i rly just hate this feeling. WL, I HATE YOU! haha
I want to become a mirco molecule so as i could get into everyone head to know what is everyone thinking.
Feel so 'oh oh blah blah ok ok'. I dont understand anyone because no one bothers telling me how they feel. So what? i am suppose to guess? there is a million possibilities! ~!@#$%^&*()_+ i dont care anymore.

I hate msn first it was L followed by w then B then R dont want to see them and blocking, deleting doesn't help. JUST CAN'T STOP STARING!

LWL you promised and this time no more lies! 06 more days! YAYNESS! you're the great& loves you the 'mostest' hahaha!












The heart is forever making the head its fool.

'haha'?

Something is BOTTLING inside me. ): ): ): ): ): i'm kind of sad? because of some stupid matter again. TELLLLLLLLLLLL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY )))))))))))))))))))))))))))): i'm loss for words all i know is it hurts. i'm retarded as the pain is only felt after weeks, months. whatever. ALL \'s fault! ):

HEY YOU! i think we rly need you to feel better!

Worst conditions

How long can the smile last on my face?
So yeah, my FAMILY drove me right to the corner again yesterday had nothing else i could do but cry myself to sleep again in my locked room. No wonder students taking Os jump off buildings. i can totally imagine! By saying school and life sucks is a understatement. however should i deal?

The life i live,
starting with school. OMGGGG O lvls, its only right that i get stressed up, like who is not? school books and work piling up the table, its the time of year where students wish they were never born, teachers wishing that they were.... well not teachers. And Parents stressing on the importance of getting A's. ARGH! why do we humans come with such misery for ourselves? So if you say humans are smart, i disagree with that. F&N cw deadlines is whats driving me up the wall.

So after the ending of school at 5pm per average school day, i have to go home and deal with the sad life that i must continue to lead on. Sibilings that ignore your pressence, PARENTS (BOTH) who blames you for causing the dispute. Actually not ignore, just hoping they could single out your mistakes and spite you with whatever they have.

Friends? how would you dare to tell them? they too have their things to go mad about. So yes there is no girl friends that i am able to confide in, even if there was there would not be one that is able to understand and belive how i feel. They'll just think that you are in the same situation they are in. Which i'm really not. you all still have your sibilings talking, bullying and scolding you. Parents scolding you for having bad results. Guess what i have NONE! Neither of them wants to talk to me, whenever i am there they would just walk away. showed my result slips to my parents and they could not care less. No matter how i try to make the topic about me they would be able to turn it to the new house and continue discuss about dimentions, depths and constructions.

Boyfriends, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! All they know is to say 'i love you, i know you can do it' firstly by saying 'ilove you' doesn't make me feel any better and the you could do it? If i could rly do it i wouldn't be this stressed. wl you're from nj! like how could you compare my results with yours! and that day when you talked about shuping or whatever, the things you said about her makes feel very very very very sad and scared. You ASSUME i wouldn't be like her, what if i am? If that happens what have you got to say? sure bfs are the best to confide in but i'm sure they're just listening for the sake of listening and at the end the tape recorder repeats. For bsf, idon'tthinkyouwouldrememberbutiaskedyouonce,'whatwouldyoudoifibrokeupwithyouoneday?wouldyougetandmarryanothermaplegirl.irememberedclearlyyouconfidentlysaidNONEVER!theworstafterabreakupisthatyourexbfgoeswithsomeoneyouknow. weipeng, yes you're another liar! IDIOT IDOT LIAR! you'll wait no matter what? What a sweet lie, NOT! But like whatever i don't rly care anyways. i wonder if you've been lying all along? But ah rly forget it, it doesn't matter. And nicolas, its impossible between us, DO NOT SAY THAT YOU'LL WAIT. wait for what? wait till i broke up with my bf for you? wishful thinking, thats the impossible of the "impossiEST"!

so like seriously i dont know what is going right for me. i can think of none, maybe you could tell me?
tell me why would anyone choose to continue this life except me. WHOCOULDBETHISDUMBRIGHT?











Standing at the edge of the cliff that i'm about to jump off soon, would you please lend a helping hand and push me over? i'll be grateful.
Just kill me, anyone?

Cheap Lousy Salesgirl

Let me explain how fun and careless yesterday was.

STARTS
ok, hey kit sorry for having you wait for all of us.
went to VIVO. belive it or not its my first time shopping there. never rly been to those shops there before, so yeah.
quite a loser right! haha.
HAVE SO SO SO MUCH THINGS SO BUY!
189 bag
50 slippers
50 top
45 top again
32 top again again
129 jacket
80 clutch
thats enough for the burn of my wallet! Of course after so i have to get a new wallet. :) 575. however am i going to find that sum? not forgetting my Gc watch . plus new wallet. NO MONEY!
savings starts now.
It was the best day ever!
went to pasta mania for brunch while walking there we kit saw jr and she said 'eh eh your junior' zz
lol firstly he is not mine
secondly, i dont know him well.
so it was vivo then to city hall i didnt get the chance to go orchard though. had to attend the BBQ at my cousins'
Last stop was at city hall, went to buy perfume.
Promoter? more like demoteR! she made it seem like i am those little kid who goes and try everything and not buy.
i asked her are those 2 scents the same. As the last time i brought it i remembered that there were some with the same scents its just that the bottles are different as they're limited edition.
she actually laughed and said all of the perfume here are different and when i wanted to try to see how it smells like , she had the cheek to say, 'i saw you holding up the bottles just now, i thought you had alrdy smelt it'
What was i suppose to do, spray it on myself to test?
If you're working, dont look down on people please,
YOU ARE WORKING, I'M BUYING.
The way she dressed she looks so poor and cheap.
The make up she have on is like 'BLAH' maybe stolen testers from 'ARIES' ?
So yes what rights do you have to look down on me? I dont even understand why Dior employed her. Totally a ru hua sister.

IT WAS A JOYOUS DAY! i had tons of fun with kit san and jiayi :D YOU ROCK!

STUDY STUDY STUDY!
Loves Dearest Darling! :)

DAY ENDS with a smile on my face.

Dreams came true

there were some ups and downs this week.

Got my results, z horrible! All i saw was f9 f9 f9. onl passed 3 subjects.

Do you know that i hate you alot? All your promises, LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIES
When i needed you you turned away. What happened to the 'you sill can talk to me when you're in need'. HELL next time if you dont mean it just dont lie to me! Dont waste your messages too. you are those guys that makes me lose faith in guys. i dont need an explaination because you are one of those ARGHHHHH! GO TO HELL GO TO HELL GO TO HELL!

well then i have to thank you for turning me down. if you did not i wouldn't be have plucked the courage to talk to wl and i wouldnt have known that THAT part of me still likes him.
LOVE WNE!!!!!!!!! :D lovedyouoncenowandeverafter! i cant promise you anything but all i know now is that you're top of everything. GRATS DARLING ON THE PROMOTION! LOVE YOU! :D