The be all and end all

I once had a friend. Why was she once my friend you ask? Let me explain.
I stopped trying to be her friend.
i'm not calm now. I feel the rage in me is going to erupt any moment.

How did it all started?

Ok, Let that once a friend be X. Try solving X.

Around 2 months back, R called me one day and ask me as i thought at that time a very funny question.
R asked,
"Did X tell you anything bad happened today with us? Is X angry with us?" I was like "huh, no nth X was smiling "?
only till few weeks back do i realize what R wanted to ask me that day.
X has been showing a 'F black face or should i say mask that she glues on to her face. [ That explains SO MUCH! ]
We all were puzzled and practically blamed ourselves for not knowing what was happening.

My definition for friends is having someone to turn to when she or he is in need. Sharing joy and lend a shoulder to cry on. And they should be able to pour out their hearts to whatever they are not happy with.

Whenever we try to ask X about what is happening X would try to void the question by simply just IGNORING. Not even saying something like i dont want to discuss this. just do not reply like X just died with a heart attack in front of the computer or phone. Then right after I aske dX the question, X started posting " le mort, leave me alone, no avail " All over X blog and nick. We thought X needed some space so we decided to give X some time. Who knows i guess X thought that this was fun! After teachers day more of X black face started surfacing.
WHHHHEEEEE we're having so much fun playing wheel of fortune to your 'F thoughts. There are some reasons why you're not bill gates you're not good are designing softwares NEEDLESS TO SAY YOUR 'F MIND GAMES! sheesh

But but but there is more to it. X tries so hard. I rly have to take my hats off for you! X tried so hard to keep the game going by attracting more attention. {this is how you think right?} This is how X did it. At first X wrote leave me alone right eventually i guess X found it meaningless as no one gave a shit anymore X switched the concept of those brainless mind games to " feel so insignificant, so lonely! " What we think is X is ASA & LOL! [ Inside joke! :) ] So like how IRONIC AND CONTRADICTING IS X? Like i said X is not good in designing games. Once agn X failed in entertaining us. I'm so sorry. DON'T SLIT YOUR WRIST JUST BECAUSE WE'RE NOT HAVING FUN OK! USE your brains! How could your cheap games interest us? Its an insult just being forced and dragged in to play.

You know what is the most hurting? instead of us she told her troubles to her other 'FRIEND'. X has been having lunch with us almost every single day, shopping, doing work and whatever which i thought is signifying that this was a friendship. But nooo, when X has a problem X just turned to someone else which X in this case trust as a friend. WHO DO X THINK WE ARE? Some random people to screw with? Ginnie pigs to those mindless games of yours? Ironically you make US FEEL INSIGNIFICANT! So back at you!

This was when i knew i totally gave up trying to be X's friend.

In the course of these games, the relationship started turning sour. X did many things testing our limits over and over agn. Driving us nuts with X's 'ni yao wo zhe me yang?' , 'Black stinky face' and trying to be all secretive and quiet. And when X is in good mood X would just be normal. We're not obliged to tolerate your nonsense. You threw our friendship to the wolves so stop making it seem as if its our fault.

We gossiped, in a nice way, discussed this matter. Laughing and practically swimming in our tears of laughter at MOS. X of course was our topic of discussion. If you have been at lunch with us you would know how unpleasant is the choice of vocabulary we use if that person is of absolute abhorrence. In this case, X is. By that choice of vocabulary of course not those coarse words.

I've never knew that you're so self obsessed and willing to give it all up just for your paranoid self obsessions. Worrying about things that obviously wouldn't happen. Cry in your little dark corner for now i dont care as i'm sure you'll scream " Leave me alone, no avail you're not my friend " RIGHT AT MY FACE ! so Why bother?

What would you do if you have a friend like X?

From pity -> Confusion -> Getting Irritated -> Hatred . So this is entirely brought upon yourself!

Don't even get me started about prom! I could rattle on and on and on.

I have much more mean things like "The Missing Cockroach" [ Inside joke hahahahahaha ]
Actually not mean, FACTS should be the better term. Things that you're unknowingly doing to us.


For every mathematics question there is an answer.
X = Teng Weesan

Yes by posting this i'm throwing down the gauntlet. Thats if you know what i'm trying to mean.